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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 09:33

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Have you ever forcibly sucked someone’s dick?

But, we were locked up after school.

She was in good health!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

If the world was flat, would it be possible to see Mount Everest if it was on the other side of the Earth on a clear sunny day?

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

We were not on the streets..

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

How do I convince my husband that a threesome is okay?

This is soul school!.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

My family never makes their pension either.

Why is Nickelback known to be a bad band?

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Why do men say women hit the wall at 24?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

What if Supergirl was a baby and not a teenager when she left Krypton? Who do you think will find her? What do you think things would be like?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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Who then, do I blame.?

I write beautiful poetry .

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was 9 years of age.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

And i lived it daily.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I have no regrets .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

She found it foreign!.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

All the time i was locked up.

Put me off passion for life!!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Comes on , in middle age.

When she asked me how she looked .

Ive learnt so much.

He knew the spot.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I never cut or harmed myself..

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I said to her

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My life is so biszare .

Was to survive, this bastard.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

So, i spoilt her more .

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

Would this be the day?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

It was going to be , some day.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

What did i know ?

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She loved him until the end.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

One cannot live in the past .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Especially a lifetime of it.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I don,t even have a pension.

I was scared of men, in general

I was very sick at this time too.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I think the readers, may guess!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Im still living with it.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

So whats the point in blame.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

I was seconnd youngest,

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She wouldn,t have been !

I will be 64.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

But it wasn’t much.

He resisted the act ,that day.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I couldn’t, believe it.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I waited trembling.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

We all went to grammer schools

She married twice! .